So I finally managed find my eldest sister recently. Lost contact with her 16 years ago, and for reasons too many to mention was not able to find her reach her, contact her, find until now although I have been looking and wanting to find her for so long.

Now after so long, and with good reason, she is apprehensive about contacting me. Is probably asking "Why now"?. Well, is not really about WHY now, is more a case of FINALLY now.

I have managed to get my own space, my own safe haven. The risks that were there before are all gone. My family, (if it can be called that) won't and can't find me, I am safe and now I can try and find you, contact you and hope that you will want to stay in touch.

I never had the strength, the courage, the facilities to try this (safely) before. Now I just want my sister, who I missed and thought about every day. To know she is ok, to tell her that so am I, and that I always loved her and wished that I could have found her many years ago.