When I got my pc, only about 6 or 7 months ago, there were several main reasons for doing so, in my mind.
Firstly. I struggle with being outside, and being around people. So it has become a lifeline to me. My contact with the outside world, so that I don't feel completely isolated. So all the things i need to try and be able to do, I can try and do from here (even if am a huge technophobe that doesn't feel like they have any idea what he's doing with the damn thing most of the time) ![]()
Secondly. To try and help me find those things that were lost to me for a very long time. Most importantly, My sister who I had been wanting to find for so long but didn't know how. Nor did I have the ability to look properly.
Thirdly. To, if it were ever going to be possible, meet people, be around people, (even if it was through the monitor screen of a computer) and try and get used to interacting with the outside world.
Now, even tho I have numbered them, they are in no particular order.
I did meet people online. I met my baybe. Something I am so very grateful for every day, and she brings me so much love and support and I love her deeply, and more each day.
I am getting more able to do the things I need to do online, and don't always feel so cut off. Another plus and one that I hope will continue to improve day by day.
And now, I have found my sister. The biggest missing part of my life. The part that I most wanted to find again. It has been torture not being able to find or speak to her, to let her know that I was thinking of her so much each day. That I hoped she was safe, well and happy. But now I can tell her all this and more, and hope that she will understand why it has taken so long for me to be able to do this. And also that she will want this half as much as I do.
So, Thank you sis, and meet my friends. friends? This is my sister, (Hemlok)
